Uncontrolled Intention

"Uncontrolled Intention"

Is what I’m struggling toward. “I wish to meet my Nemesis, headlong!”
I wish to know why I was brought into this World, “Unintentional”...
and yet, my Life has been a struggle of “Intent”.
Sadly, “Without thought, Without purpose, but Inhibited”.

Parables.

And now my Art has found a “Path for Exploration”. How I approach
and if I enter this “Avenue” will be “Intentional”.
But! To “Create that which is Uncontrolled” will be my challenge!
“Without thought. Without purpose. Without inhibition.”

From my Art have I expressed the “Awkwardness of Life”. Mine.
And from the moment I could express my “feelings thru eye and hand”
upon paper, canvas, wood,...it was All unintended, uncontrolled...
No, uncontrollable.

Quandary.

In the past were the “Rituals” of destroying my works. Change.
Some were “rescued” before they “met the fire”, by Friends.
However, for quite some time I have not destroyed my Work.
Looking at it daily, pondering, wondering, admiring and asking
myself, “What next and when?”

My existing Art is the result of years of practice, experience and
exploration. Too, it is hard to express in words “what has been created”.
For at the time “I was ready” my feelings took control of my hands
and the “End Result?”...no idea. As with it All. But was it?
A simple sketch, a visual, sometimes these are my “catalyst”.

And now I wish to “go beyond”. I wish to create from “Uncontrolled,
Unintended and Uninhibited realms where I have struggled to
remain apart. I wish to create “That which I Loath”...
a Piece (for want of a better phrase) of Crap!
The result? Canvas and paint, period.

But, can I? I created one piece...and now “I like it!”
“It’s not supposed to work that way!”
A Piece created from an intentional painting upon an
intentional painting and finally...”abandonment and fun!”

Challenge.